What is your job title? How many years of experience do you have in that field?

I am currently a freelance writer and educator. I’ve been writing as a freelancer for about 9 years and volunteering in the local school district for about a year and a half.

How would you describe yourself using three adjectives only?

Multi – faceted; complex; free-spirited

What is your ethnicity and gender? What kinds of discrimination have you experienced?

I am a woman who considers herself multiethnic. My mother was Native American from the Colville Indian Reservation in Washington State and my father was first-generation Sicilian American.

Being a mixed blood native person comes with a kind of discrimination that most people don’t recognize. It has to do with having my authenticity as Native American person questioned on all fronts. Americans (and others) are conditioned to think that there is a model “Indian” person; someone who looks a certain way, or dresses a certain way or lives on a reservation. The fact is, the process of settler colonialism (what the United States is based on) was designed to eliminate Indians.

It’s done this in a multitude of ways, and one of those ways is to racialize native identity by measuring it in terms of blood quantum. This means that someone who is less than a “full blood Indian” is less than authentic as an Indian person. It’s a constant process of minimalization.

It’s the opposite of the one drop rule for black people-where one drop of black blood (historically) made you black by law. When you’re a mixed blood Indian there is a sense that you don’t fit fully in the Indian world or the white world. There’ve also been plenty times I’ve been called Pocahontas, too, in a pejorative sense.

Where you work, how well does your company do ‘equal opportunity’? Is management white and male? How are minorities perceived and treated?

I am self-employed, so that does not apply to me for the most part. However, I will say that I’ve been trying to get hired on in the school district in a paying job. The community where I live is predominately upper-middle-class white. I’ve applied numerous times for jobs that I’m very well qualified for and so far I’m not seeing a real commitment to diversity.

If you’ve experienced discrimination, in what ways have you responded and what response worked best?

In terms of the kind of discrimination I have described above, I have tried for decades to figure out a way to respond to it and I still haven’t figured out a good response! Most recently, I’ve written a blog post about it and referred people to that.
People don’t like to see themselves as discriminatory or in any way racist.

Discrimination can show up in so many subtle ways that people can’t even see in themselves. It’s sort of been a personal project for me to be able to figure out how to gently educate people in these issues. But it took me a long time just to come to terms with the fact that it was a type of discrimination that I was experiencing.

Going back to school and getting a degree in Native American studies was a huge help for me in this regard. There, because I went to school with many other native people, I was able to learn about this in an intellectual way but also understand the kinds of experiences other Indian people have had.

Would you describe what you do on a typical day? Are there any common myths you want to correct about what you do?

On an average day, I get up and get a cup of coffee and go to my computer and start looking for a job. I look for freelance writing jobs and I look for full-time permanent jobs. I’ve been doing this for over a year. I spend a huge portion of my day on the computer, not just looking for jobs but also fulfilling the jobs that I do have.

My main gig right now is writing for a website called About.com, which is owned by the New York Times. They have a new category (which is under the Education category) called Native American history and I was hired to be the topic writer there. I was pretty fortunate to be hired; it was a pretty intense vetting process and I had to compete against an unknown number of people.

But it is a great way for me to put my education to use and get paid for it (if minimally). I have to write eight articles a month and several blog posts to promote the articles as well. So I spend a good amount of time doing that. When I’m not doing that I’m surfing or dancing (I’m studying hula).

As far as myths, I don’t know what kind of myths there are about freelance writers but maybe one of them is that there is good money to be made. That hasn’t been my experience… The opposite is more likely true. Like all other industries, writing jobs are outsourced to developing nations where they can work at much cheaper rates. It seems to me the days of writing for a dollar a word are long gone.

On a scale of 1 to 10 how would you rate your job satisfaction? What would it take to increase that rating?

There are advantages to freelancing, the obvious ones being the ability to work from home and have total control of your own time. So I would have to rate it as a five. What would increase it is if I had a steady stream of better paying jobs. Or if I could get a job more closely aligned to my education. But that’s pretty tough given where I live, not to mention the current state of the economy. I live in California where it’s been very hard hit and education jobs for people with ethnic studies backgrounds are pretty hard to come by, if not nonexistent.

Is there anything unique about your situation that readers should know when considering your experiences or accomplishments?

Yes, and this is sort of the back story that I will tell.

I had a long career in the dental field as a dental assistant and office manager. It was a career I chose as a very young person while still in high school. I knew I didn’t want to go to college because I hated school but I also knew I needed some kind of job training and back in those days there was a program in the public schools that trained kids for certain kinds of somewhat menial professions. I chose the dental assistant program as the default career option. It worked for me for quite a while because I could always get a job, but it was pretty miserable work; very stressful and thankless. I did it for well over 15 years.

One of the reasons it was such a bad job is because dentists are notoriously bad to work for, at least they were back then. A little over 20 years ago I was working for one of those guys and I was so stressed out after three years of working for him that it was making me sick, physically. I was waking up in the morning with migraine headaches, making it really hard to function. I quit my job and I was fortunate enough to be able to collect disability for about a year. This bought me time, time to figure out a new path.  

In that time I learned how to do Native American beadwork and leather work, like my ancestors did. Long story short, I was able to turn it into a career. I got good enough at it and figured out how to make a business of it that I supported myself for over 10 years this way. I developed a modest but national level of recognition because I won many awards for my work in the most prestigious Native American art events in the country. It helped validate my tenuous sense of identity as a Native American woman, and it brought my mother pride as well.

I was also raising a son as a single mother for most of those years. It worked out well for me because I was traveling a lot in those days doing the art show circuit which took me all over the country. There were some years I was traveling 25 weekends or more; my son would go to his dad’s house on the weekends while I was out traveling and during the week I was able to be at home with him. But my son’s father passed away, leaving me a sole parent when he was nine years old. By then I had become very active in local Native American political issues and had begun writing articles in the local newspaper about some of those issues. Knowing I would have to have a degree in order to be taken seriously as a writer, and also being burned out from my career as an artist, I decided to move to New Mexico and go back to school. That’s when I entered Native American studies program at the University of New Mexico at 47 years of age.

I stayed in school for six straight years and got a master’s degree. While I was a senior I reconnected with an old love from my past and ended up marrying him when I was in grad school. My son and I moved to back to Southern California (where I was born and raised) to be with him. It’s been two years now, and about seven months since I graduated.

So that’s how I got to where I am now. My plan had been to stay in school for a PhD and then get out and teach Native American studies. But at some point it became clear to me that staying in school was not going to benefit me so for now I’ve decided not to go back. Never in my wildest streams did I imagine I would ever move back to Southern California and marry my lost love.

But here I am, happily married, and having to reinvent myself once again in less than ideal circumstances, career-wise. It’s been a real gift but at the same time I’ve had to make some big personal sacrifices. That’s what I’m trying to find my way through now.

Does this job move your heart, how so? If not, what would?

My About.com moves my heart, yes. And when I can find other writing jobs in Indian country (sometimes I write magazine articles for native publications) then I feel like I’m doing the work I’m supposed to be doing. But sometimes out of financial necessity I take jobs that I don’t really enjoy.

When I’m writing about native topics I feel like I have the power to change the way people understand history or dispel popular misconceptions about Native American people. It’s really gratifying to me when somebody I know reads my work and says “I didn’t know that and I really learned something.” I’ve always had an internal need to make a difference in the world in some way. Maybe it’s just impacting someone’s individual life for a moment; but now it’s more like wanting to make my mark in the world as an artist or a writer. An elder/teacher of mine once taught me that the goal of life was to leave a legacy. I suppose that’s what I am striving to do.

I was hired for one project recently that was funded by the Canadian government, for an organization that does work in the realm of mental health and addiction in Aboriginal communities. I had to write a literature review and report of my findings; it was an opportunity to insert a very indigenous perspective and draw on cutting-edge scholarly work in the field. It was very challenging but I felt like I was doing work that meant something.

I mentioned that I work in the local school district as a volunteer. What I do is act as an assistant to the district’s Indian education director, who has created a Native American museum that is a teaching tool for the teachers. We give tours to school kids and teach teachers about Native American culture and history. We are trying to set up a new exhibit that teaches about ecology and environmentalism from the Native American perspective, but raising the money for that has been a problem.

If we can ever raise the money, the goal was to create a paying position for which I would be the director. But that’s a lot easier said than done. It may be possible that I would fill the position of the Indian education director for the district if and when the current director retires, which she says will be doing in the next year or two. So I am kind of holding out for that possibility. It’s still only a part-time position it wouldn’t pay all that much, but it would help.

Why do you get up and go to work each day? Can you give an example of something that made you feel really good or proud?

Well, writing is very creative work and I’ve found that I need that creativity in my life. I thrive on it. I know what it’s like to do work that is soul-killing and I really don’t want to have to do that anymore if I can help it. So I get up in the morning, go downstairs to my computer, and begin another search for jobs and hope that this day will present something new, with some better financial potential. The only missing piece for me right now is a good paycheck! And in the meantime I enjoy the rewards of writing content for and enjoying surfing and dancing.

What did you learn the hard way in this job and what happened specifically that led up to this lesson?

I’d say that I’m still just trying to find the perfect career. I don’t know if that really exists, because I’ve been through several different career paths in my 50-some years. For me the path has been a process of growing and changing as a person and it is imperative that my career reflect who I am as that person. If I’ve learned anything the hard way, it is that there is no one perfect career or job that will last for my entire lifetime.

In some ways I wish that I could be the kind of person who could be satisfied with one career or job, but I think that is pretty unrealistic for most people these days. Plus, I’ve never been driven much by money. I’ve always been driven more by principle and the need to have a good balance between my personal life and my professional life.

How did you get started in this line of work? If you could go back and do it differently, what would you change?

I didn’t get out of college with the intent of being a full time freelance writer, although I have always wanted to continue to write, and write professionally. So even though it’s not ideal, I’m doing what I do now because there is a certain level of convenience. What I do for a living has to fit in with the rest of my life as a married person, living in the particular community I live in (which happens to be a pretty great place to live, but geographically difficult in several ways in terms of the ideal career for me).

I did a lot of research on the Internet about what it takes to make a living as a freelance writer. I stumbled into one thing that would lead to another thing and another thing. Now most of my work comes from Elance.com and occasional other sources but everything I do is Internet-based.

I don’t know that I would say that I would change anything. I could not have foreseen how my life would change and when life hands you opportunities you take them if you’re smart. Life handed me love unexpectedly and I took it even though it derailed my plans. It’s like John Lennon said, “life is what happens while you’re busy making other plans.”

That’s what happened to me. And it’s good, but I suppose I’m just sort of waiting for the final pieces of the puzzle to fall into place. And that would be the ideal job or career, or at least a little more consistent money.

How stressful is your job? Are you able to maintain a comfortable or healthy work-life balance?

One of the beautiful things about what I do is that it’s very low stress (except for the fact that I feel I don’t make enough money). Being able to make my own schedule is awesome and I don’t have someone staring over my shoulder telling me what to do all the time. I love working at home and I have a lot of freedom to do other things. So I would say that I have a very comfortable and healthy work/life balance.

What’s a rough salary range for the position you hold? Are you paid enough and/or happy living within your means?

I have read a report which claims that freelance writers on average make between $29 and $59 per hour, but I have my doubts about that. Maybe I’m just doing something wrong. Sometimes I get jobs that give me that kind of margin, but more often than not I don’t.

If I wasn’t married and had to support myself on my own with what I’m currently doing, I would not be able to, especially where I live now. It scares me to think that with my education I’m making less money than I’ve ever made, but that’s the current reality for me.

What kind of challenges do you face and what makes you just want to quit?

My biggest challenge is that my education is not suited for where I live. It would be easier for me to get a job in Indian country if I was living in New Mexico or some other place where there are more Indians. But that would mean I would have to move and I’m not willing to do that. So I am forced to figure it out based on where I live now.

What makes me want to quit is discouragement. I fill out dozens of applications every month and it is very rare that I even get a response. But if I don’t try I certainly don’t have a chance.

What education and skills do you need to get hired and succeed in this field?

As far as being a freelance writer, I think the more education you have the more credibility you have. Not only can you specialize in writing about your academic field, you also demonstrate that you have the ability to research which is a really important skill in writing pretty much anything. Obviously you have to have good writing skills. I often come across jobs that specify people with an English or journalism background.

Another really good skill to have is the understanding of SEO, which is search engine optimization. The more computer skills you have the better off you are as well.

What would you tell a friend considering your line of work?

I really started about nine years ago writing op-ed pieces and news stories for a community newspaper, for free. I was just thrilled to be published and that somebody thought what I had to say was worth printing. Once you begin establishing a body of published work you have something to refer to for potential clients. You have to have as well-rounded a portfolio as possible.

Internet based freelance writing is a really fast growing field right now. There are more and more new websites coming online that specialize in connecting freelancers with jobs. There are websites called content mills that are good places to start as a professional freelancer.

That’s what I did; I got hired on by Demand Media, which owns Ehow.com, Livestrong.com and others. I wrote articles for Ehow.com, which only pays about $15 per article but it’s a good way to get started writing professionally and gives you good experience working with an editor. Most of the freelancing sites and content mills are very low-paying jobs but it’s a good way to start.

Another thing I would tell a friend if they wanted to pursue a career as a freelance writer is to learn how to use a dictation program. I started having a lot of trouble with my wrists because I was typing so much and you can really damage them. But learning how to use a dictation program really saves you.

How much vacation do you take? Is it enough?

I don’t take much vacation time at all. I really don’t like to travel very much anymore because I spent so much time traveling for a living, and I hate dealing with airports. I live in a Southern California beach community which is the kind of place that people come to vacation. I spend a lot of time on the beach and in the ocean so I really don’t feel a whole lot of need to get away because I love where I live. I have a pretty laid-back lifestyle, I must say, so I really don’t feel the need to get away much.

If you could write your own ticket, what would you like to be doing in five years?

Wildest dreams? What I’m doing now – only making a lot more money at it. I’d also like to be working in an academic or educational environment, maybe teaching part-time.

 
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  • Mariam

    I am not Native American, but I sympathize with the author about being multiethnic. I am part Black but because I don’t “look Black” no one accepts this part of my heritage. Because I am such a mix and have so many part somethings people sometimes get frustrated and say “oh you’re just everything!”, denying my ethnic heritages because it is “too complicated/confusing”.

  • Shynelle

    I am Black and Native American along with white. Where I live people do not really dress like me or have my type of style in some ways and I always get stared at. Or When I went to high school I have long hair, but I look fully black people not knowing what other race I really am they ask is that your real hair.
    It is hard to get a job in the field that I want to work in because I am black I have applied to this company plenty of times in the areas I know I am qualified in over and over and over still never heared anything because when I walked in the company all I saw were whites I couldn’t even speak to the hiring manager.
    All I want is a good job that is going to hire me because I qualify not based on color or how much education I have. So I stoped looking for a job in the medical filed for awhile and turned to customer service or telemarketing, but I know I am much better than these job and I want to show my skills. I am not saying customer service or telemarketing jobs are not good becaue they are it has gotten me by so I can provide for my mom and sister and pay car note and insurance, but now I am unemployed.

  • Laura0702

    I am a Puerto Rican 30 something. As I read the authors story, I could really relate to her experiences. Especially when she wrote of the subtle discrimination people face. It is never anything overt but its there and it lingers. Like the author, I feel like not much can be done to stop it from happening at the moment, but I try to change peoples opinions by my example. I try to live a good life showing others that I don’t fit that stereo type you have of me, my ethnicity, or gender.

    Sometimes I feel that most of the discrimination comes from my lack of knowledge in an area. For instance, I am finishing my bachelors degree in Anthropology, I am hoping to continue into my masters program and hopefully into a PhD. I am only a one of a handful of people who will have earned a bachelors in my family. I will be the first in my immediate family to attempt a Masters Program and only the second person in my family to have aspirations of completing a Phd. With so little examples to follow, I find myself at a disadvantage not knowing the process of applying, where to begin, and who to speak with in progressing forward.In these areas those who can take the opportunity to slight you they will. They can accomplish this just by making the process a little bit harder. Sometimes they just omit a piece of information that can be helpful. Most of the time the information comes out eventually and is casually dismissed as an oversight of the omission. It can be very discouraging. While this alone is enough to discourage many people, I find it only makes me more determined. I owe this determination to my family, I am very lucky to have their support. Although they may not have much knowledge to help in the process, their encouragement and positiveness keeps me strong on this up- hill climb.

  • chanelmoore3

    I am an African American
    female and have experienced discrimination my entire life. I overcame obstacles
    by continuing to stay focused on my goals and keeping a positive attitude.
    Discrimination is a part of society that will always hinder relationship growth-
    one must rise above it and mentor others to ensure that discrimination is
    minimized. I personally have been employed with the same company over 18 years
    and witnessed diversity enhancements on the job. I plan to open my own business
    in the future and will have diversity training for my employees.

  • AmyK

    I’m also a Native American, and I can relate to your story. My mother is full-blood Native American belonging to both the Ho-Chunk Nation and Lower Sioux tribe. My father is Caucasian. When you talked about facing discrimination that people don’t realize, that really hit home with me. When I was a waitress, the most common question that I received from my tables would be “What are you?”. I knew they were referring to my race, but I thought that was a very interesting way to phrase it.

    Growing up, my siblings and I faced a lot of similar discrimination because we lived in a predominantly white neighborhood. People called me names like Pocahontas, and Corn. During an archery unit someone told my sister to “hit the bulls eye Squanto”. Even into adulthood, people ask if my family lives on a reservation. It’s incredible what comes out of educated adults’ mouths.

  • Espinosa

    I can relate to the kind of discrimination you describe,
    about not being “authentic.” I am a white Hispanic.

    I first started encountering problems when I was a child
    filling out school forms. I would have to choose in between marking myself down
    as “White, not of Hispanic origin” and “Hispanic, not White.” Growing up
    speaking both languages, growing up in both American and Panamanian schools, I
    did not know how to respond. Which part of me should I deny?

    When I was working on the 2010 census I was so excited to
    see that race and ethnicity were listed separately, but was disheartened
    completing the census. Because race is self-identified, I could not simply fill
    out the form for the family I visited. I asked people for their race. Many
    people of Hispanic origin were upset that Hispanic was not listed as a race,
    and they did not know how to identify themselves on paper. This was hard for me
    because I am as fully Hispanic as any person who is browner than me. In fact,
    because Spanish was my first language and I had to learn English, I believe
    myself to be more “ethnic” than Hispanics I have met that have never spoken the
    language and have no connections to their home country. Still, I recognize
    their claim to the title and I wish they would recognize mine.

    I have had African-Americans tell me that they hate Hispanics,
    seeing my white skin and thinking I would not find their words offensive. I
    have experienced my white father and my white husband make jokes about “taco-benders”
    and “wet-backs.” I have had friends of several races be surprised that I don’t
    support this issue or that, thinking that my ethnic background should also
    define my politics.

    It has been so frustrating.

  • Mr. C

    This goes to show that discrimination still exits subliminally in this society. We all may not see it, but it still happens.

  • sts

    I like the idea of a “freelance” occupation. Freedom to expound on existing talents without the inhibition of 9-5. It’s important for me to master my work and not have my work master me.

  • Erica

    I 23 years old and I am a biracial american. I have felt discriminated against at times being called things like half-breed or even being alienated from my african american peers as they referred to me as “white” or just not like them. Then at the same time not feeling that I completely fit in with my white peers.

    I enjoyed this story because I experienced and shift in careers similar to this. I Worked a high stress job which eventually led to health problems and difficulty with school. Afraid to quit in fear that I would lose my apartment and lively hood with no money. With much resistance from family and friends, I finally decided to quit my stressful job and find something better-because I deserved better. With low self esteem throughout my life it was sometimes hard to believe that there could be something better for me out there.

    However, after many months of struggle and unemployment and thoughts that no one would hire me, I finally got back on my feet with two stress-less jobs that I love. I am also pursuing a career in the arts which before I avoided because of my lack of confidence in my talents and abilities. I think that self esteem issues caused by discrimination growing up leads to these types of unhappinesses in life- sticking with a job you hate because you don’t feel you deserve better or choosing a career you settled for just because you don’t think that you are good enough to do what you really enjoy.

  • Julie Hanson

    I love that the women in the story is self employed and has very little stress in her life. She has here own schedule and that is really convenient when having a child.
    My work life is very scheduled but my school life is not so much. I love being able to do my homework at anytime before 2 am. Online school has taken the stress away from having a day to day schedule of going to school every day.
    I also like the part of finding the perfect career. It is hard to find the right job and the right people to hire you for what you are truly passionate about. I guess waiting to find the perfect career takes time and patience.

  • wilson1

    I am not a woman and I am not Native American. But I am Hispanic and I know what it is like to experience discrimination. Many people view Hispanics as “dirty and lazy.” It is quite sad. I myself am a very hard worker and I keep myself clean. Stereotypes and discrimination are very hurtful and should not occur. Discrimination is wrong.

  • rmm

    As a Native American female I can relate to many points within this article. Although I have not worked in the work force as an adult, I share some of the same concerns. I’m currently in my second year of college and face the point on choosing a career. Should I choose a career that I know I will enjoy and love but know I will struggle to make ends met financially? Or do I choose a career that I know I won’t be happy doing but will pay the bills. Being able to support a family is one of my top goals but right beside it is my goal to do something I love to do. Because like Confucius said “Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.” So I hope in the future that the job I choose will pay me with the reward by feeding my soul even if it means that I won’t be able to splurge on the non-necessities in life.

  • kyla stockdale

    i am also native american and this story is very inspirational to me, just to know that she went back and continued her education at the age of 47 this give me so much hope and courage to keep going forward with my education and to find a career that i both love and can afford to take care of my family on my own with.

  • Adeline

    I am also a Native American female of the Tohono O’odham Nation and her story hits home for most individuals who try and make it through life with many obstacles, including discrimination. I worked through my years after high school and when I decided to go to college it was very hard working full time, taking care of family, and trying to go to school. After twenty years I decided to give college another try and found that online school was the best option and so far I have earned an Associates degree, now working on my Bachelors degree.
    I was the first to graduate college in my family and worked hard through tough times, such as losing family members, dealing with family emergencies, being overwhelmed, and just the average procrasting but made it this far. Now looking to get back into the workforce is another challenge during these tough times and helping pay for college is becoming overwhelming as well.
    I feel the need to make a change in someone’s life after I made that change to continue to go to college. We all need a chance to prove that we can make a difference if we have a chance.

  • Jacqueline C

    Although I am not a Native American, this article is truly inspirational. It makes me rethink the whole idea about discrimination. As an Asian in a White dominant school, I’ve been called “Jackie Chan” and “Chop Sticks.” Her choice of continuing her education is commendable and it has inspired me to do my best at my education.

  • Gabe

    I found your post very humbling, thank you for sharing. I also empathized directly with your background and your calling as a writer. I myself am of “mixed” blood – half of my family being white settlers from Europe and the other being Mexican-indigenous. I also follow my heart as a writer, particularly pursuing issues of race, identity, and social discrimination of ethnic minorities.

    What I love most of all, along with your drive and determination, is your way of transcending “soul-killing” work for that which moves you and, in turn, moves others.

  • Terry S.

    I am an African American woman who understands what it feels
    like to face discrimination all your lifetime.
    Your story is so inspiring! I
    love how you took skills learned in your previous careers, and leveraged them (with
    the help of education) to get the career you wanted. Although you’re not rich, I know the
    priceless feeling of satisfaction you must feel by fighting racial stereotyping.

    I do struggle with many types of discrimination – from those
    who are not Black, as well as those who are!
    Many people do not speak about this– but many people of color discriminate
    against each other, even though others see them as all being Black (i.e.
    African, African American, Bahamian, etc.).

    I am using my background in human resources as I get my
    doctorate in adult education and leadership.
    I love using what I learn about how adults learn to better teach them
    about the importance of diversity and inclusion in my new career in management consulting
    (focusing on human capital)

  • http://www.facebook.com/jiayi.zeng.940 Jiayi Zeng

    I like to deal with electrics stuff even inside of it. For example, I have assembled several desktops including one for myself. It was fun and interesting.

  • Shobi Zetinaq

    I too can relate to this article being that I am also a “mixed blood” and face discrimination from both general society and individuals on the reservation. I have gone through experiences where I had to face not only discrimination of being an “Indian” but being part white. It has been a tough journey to make identification on both the reservation and gerneral society.
    Due to the fact that I do love my Indian people, I ultimatly want to serve the people of my reservation. There is always issues that need to be addressed amoungst my people, and in doing so I would like to grant write with skills that would bring in the funding we would need to set up an originazation that will help people become more independent (sovereign) as not only as individuals but as a Nation. With this, it needs to start with the healing of the 500 years of oppression and genoside. It has to start with the individual sovereignty then move toward a govrrnment concept of sovereign. This article will give me the idea of the obsticles of a writer and gives me an personalized outlook of the sacrifices I will be willing to make.

  • Janelle

    I recently had the opportunity to work with a professor of mine on an article he was writing about decolonizing methodologies for the humanities – essentially, we were working on addressing the sort of bias and discrimination that shows up in research, particularly when white/Caucasian academics are writing about minorities – especially indigenous or so-called “Third World” peoples. A lot of work is being done right now by Native, Indigenous, and Aboriginal writers and academics to push that envelope – to fight for research that respects them as people as well as their cultures, lands, and traditions.

    It was very exciting to be able to help with that and it was the first formal academic writing I had done. We wrote specifically about the pushback from Native communities in regards to the Occupy Wall Street movement (search for “Decolonize Wall Street” to get a look at some of what we were drawing from) but also about the experience of working to fight our own prejudices and biased cultural lenses – the effort to decolonize our own thinking and writing. I don’t think we’re there yet, but we definitely learned a lot and wanted to share what we’d learned with the rest of the academic community.

    I hope the future holds more equality for Native and Indigenous people in all areas, but particularly in my own field of academic research and writing. I fully intend to keep fighting for the rights of people categorized as Other to be heard and respected.

  • Portia Jones

    I can relate to this article because I have learned that a happy worker is a good worker and I have been passed over for promotions because I didn’t look the part.

  • Salsabin V

    I know how it feels when being discriminated only because of your color and ethnicity. You have such a good back round in writing and tell people rejected you because of your color. Now the world needs a workforce full of diversity. I read many patients story in occupation therapy that many therapist reject the therapy because their patient is living in a unsafe community. Status level, Color, background all need to stop in this world because one day people will work with all different kinds of people.

  • srscott

    This article is an inspiration. It is a reminder to not give up on your dreams and that although the process may seem long, there is an award at the finish line. Being a Native American, you do feel the discrimination and one most important thing of all is there’s not enough support for your decisions. This article was a great reminder to myself to keep continuing my education.

  • Paul

    People need to be evaluated for what they can do; not for what they look like.

  • Mina

    Dina, Your story is inspirational! The many aspects of your life have brought you to where you are now, a woman of strength and integrity. You inspire me.

  • Shelly

    I am a Black woman who constantly feels discriminated against. People constantly say that We as Blacks need to stop saying that everything is or everyone is racist. Do I believe that everything is based upon race? Of course not! But does race still determine a lot of people’s view points? Yes! I live in a city that is considered a metropolitan city, therefore, more diverse. Maybe it is as far as the number of Blacks, Hispanics, Arabs, but we still do not lead the way in the business world. I am in the legal field and sometimes I feel as if I will never get an opportunity to do anything but become a police officer or correctional officer (those are praise worthy careers), but I want the opportunity to do more and it seems as if the limit as been met for Black females within the top white legal firms. I feel your struggles and concern.s

  • LukeCN

    Your life sounds like a very wild train ride. I’m in my fourth year of college and can’t imagine where I would be if I had started on a career path right out of high school as you did. I am always looking towards the future, but I worry that I will stumble and fall when I get there. You seem to have had it a lot rougher, and you seem to have figured out just how to make life how you want it all on your own. You are a true inspiration.

  • sydneycannon

    I am also a minority female, so to hear this story is extremely inspiring. Thank you for sharing.

  • cnlukacs

    You are a truely inspiring woman. I am also mixed race Native American. My mother is full Cherokee and was the first in that side of my family to move off of the Cherokee Nation Indian Reservation in Tahlequah. My father is a Hungarian Jew, and probably several other races; his side of my family has moved around a lot.

    I really like what you had to say about your career and that you have experienced soul-killing work. Though I have had different experiences from you, I have experienced been being called Pocahontas in that way and have been discriminated in the past by both my Native American family, for being too white, and by people in various jobs that I have had based on stereotypes about Native Americans.
    The most inspiring thing I take from this is that you would still do what you are doing now if you could “write your own ticket.” I am currently going to college to hopefully work in an art involved career that is also in an academic/educational environment. I really like that you know what you want to do and it is something you can truely be happy at.

    • cnlukacs

      I apologize, I tried to seperate my paragraphs, but the last two combined as one. :(

  • alfredajharris

    I think that you are very brave to talk about how discrimination has impacted your life and how you have overcome it to move forward in your life is inspiring! I also admire how insightful you are regarding what works for you life. It is very brave to allow yourself to take a chance on love again and then uproot your life and that of your child’s to pursue it. As a racially mixed woman, I have also faced discrimination. Like you I am mixed with a lot of Native American from both parents who are also racially mixed. However, I am mixed with African American, Asian, and a little Irish/Scottish. I have always been treated like I am not quite “Black” enough by my Black family and I am ignored by my Native American family members, so I understand some of the pain you may have experienced. I am glad someone spoke about this issue. I think most Americans who have been in this country for generations do not understand that what is on the outside truly does not mean anything. So many of us are mixed with other races and nationalities that discrimination is pointless. Just because you look like one race does not mean you are not mixed with other races. I am sure if we shook most Americans family tree other races and nationalities would surely fall out of it!

  • Georgie

    Your story and experiences are truly inspirational as I too find it difficult sometimes to try and advance professionally, but then be cast aside or ignored in companies that boast equal opportunity. I am very happy you have found you niché with your writing and I wish you the best of luck in your future endeavors! Cheers!

  • http://twitter.com/michaelmontes1 Mtezz

    You
    have a great story to tell. I have taken notes on how I can become a writer and
    be in charge of what I write. Job satisfaction is very important to me.

    As
    you mention there are advantages to freelancing. Having total control would be
    important to me if I were a full-time writer. It is important to make time that
    does not involve outside world distractions in order to be a good writer.

    You
    definitely provide some great food for thought for an aspiring writer. I also
    live in California. I am pursuing my Bachelor’s degree to become a teacher. I
    do understand how difficult it will be once I am ready to work in my field.

    I
    can relate to you in that I have went from loving writing to trying to find a
    career in it to then applying my skills of teaching writing to students.

    I
    like that you mention that you did not know what you wanted to do, but you made
    a choice to work in the dentistry field. I too took a job right out of high
    school in fear that I would be left behind.

    Not
    everyone should know what he or she wants to do with the rest of their life by
    age 17. What does everyone think further? Great topic!

  • JosetteLopez

    What an amazing story. As said below it was very inspirational. As a person who is struggling with school and wanting to be a writer herself I found this very helpful. I felt as though I related with the story. It was almost like my future life was being told within this article. I too feel as though I am going through life stressing out and not doing what I love to do. I am going to school majoring in Public Health, as I go in it I feel like, “yes, it can help people but is it what I really want?” I loved how you quoted Mr. Lennon. It really struck a cord for me, I really hope that I fall into a career I love to do. Thank you for sharing your story. It has opened my eyes.

  • tkierstyn

    This story is probably one of the very few inspirational stories I’ve read in quite awhile. I hardly ever come across another Native American who wants to help benefit our people. It’s crazy how similar her dreams are with mine. No matter how small the effort or impact on the Native community, she is willing to help her people. She sought a higher education while keeping true to her native side. This is something I find amazing. As a Native American, this is exactly what I want to do someday. I’m currently in college and I also have the dream to help my people in some manner in hopes to create a sort of unity among the different nations.

    She also went with something she loves doing. For the most part, I hear people pursuing careers in what would pay a lot of money and not something they are truly passionate about. I really like this story.

  • thunderbat2176

    Thank you for sharing this story. I find it truly motivating for me, as an African American male, to
    push myself even harder towards my dreams and goals.

  • jjimmie

    There are many aspects of your story that I completely agree with. I am a 22 year old Native American (Navajo) student studying hydrology. First off, I know that I want to go back and help my tribe (and all tribes) with water litigation and management, but I know that it’s not what I want to do for the rest of my life. There are many other professions I believe I am meant to involve myself in so I agree that there is not one sole career people are going to do for the rest of their lives. I also connected with you when you said you are not driven by making money (although in our world today it is something we need to survive, unfortunately), because I have the same mentality. For me personally, I could care less about making money because God has always provided for me as a student, and when I am doing his will I have nothing to worry about. The reward of making a contribution to Indian Country is a reward in itself. The reason I bring up my faith is because I’m sure you have faith that a job opportunity will arise, and it seems like it has with your job working with Demand Media.

    In the beginning of your story it really struck a chord when you mentioned you faced simply claiming mixed-blood heritage. Personally, I cannot relate to having mixed heritage but it still bothers me when people try to stereotype Native peoples as to looking a certain way. I have been assumed to Chinese or Korean simply due to my appearance but I brush it off because people may not have been around Natives before. Since I go to a predominantly Caucasian school, I have heard stories of cultural insensitivity toward Indigenous individuals and this caused me to step up and break the stereotypes that come along with being Native. It is inspiring to hear of your involvement with your local school district and exposing students to Native American history, because it is often minimal in school curriculum or not even present.

    I admire the fact you went back to school to pursue Native American studies and reconnect with your Native heritage. It’s always inspiring to hear the education journey of American Indian students, and yours delivered. As a student in a large school I feel it is my duty to provide a Native point of view, and your collaboration with the project funded by the Canadian government instills the idea that Indian Country is still a force to be reckoned with. Native people have the amazing characteristic to adapt and it is awesome to see that you are in Southern California giving your full effort in finding a job. ALSO, kudos for the John Lennon quote; he is definitely a role model of mine. Lastly, I wish you the best of luck in the future as a writer and may our Creator bless you in all your endeavors.

  • Kik

    I most certainly can connect with you on the level of being a mother and going back to school later on in life. With four little ones running around and a husband teaching and coaching full time on the reservation, life is very stressful sometimes. I have high hopes of joining him there permanently though; slowing down my life and working as an effective teacher and role model in the community. Although my husband and children are enrolled tribal members, I am not. I worry that it will be a huge adjustment for me and that I will make a lot of mistakes, but my experience thus far has been fantastic. The Tohono O’odham people are loving and kindhearted. They have a world of respect for my husband and soon I hope they will feel the same about me. Here’s to my dream job! Good luck with yours!

  • Akiera

    I can certainly relate to this woman’s experience. Although I am only a senior in high school, I have faced many variations of discrimination as well. I am an African-American female, and I struggle with the fact that I am excluded from the African-American community in my school because I do not conform to the stereotype of a typical Black girl(i.e. loud, obnoxious, and ghetto.) However, I find that since I excel in school, I am praised by the faculty at my school(I go to a very diverse school, but most of the people with upper level positions are white) as being the “exception.” I am unsure how to feel about that since I know they mean it in a positive way, but the fact that my race is looked at in such a negative light is disappointing and saddening. My parents always pushed me to become either a lawyer or engineer, but seeing the racial disparity in all aspects of my life, and considering my love of science, I am pursuing a health science major, and I hope to go on to become an epidemiologist, and in addition to my work in finding the causes of certain disease, do field work and treat people in third-world countries, as well as close the gap in healthcare (between the poor-and predominantly Black and Hispanic- and the rich.)

  • Michelle V.

    Amazing story, I can really relate to it. Very inspirational and motivational.

  • soonergurl32

    It is very touching to read your story a lot of the time I think we feel alone as individuals when it comes to discrimination. I recently relocated and I am American indian I called the only indian clinic I could find in the area to see if I could get in as a patient I was turned down because I was not from thier tribe, I felt discriminated aginst. Where I come from it dosn’t matter what tribe your from as long as you belong to a tribe.
    I am 32 years old and I have two kids since they were born we have constantly faced a long line of people that have made sarcastic comments about the color of our skin, hair, and eyes. I have had numerous people including doctors tell me there is no way either my children or I am an indian. After a while you start to take offense to the comments but it only pushes me to accomplish more and to be better at anything I strive to do in life.

  • AlienatedSoul

    I am inspired by this story. I am African-American and I can relate to the alienation that you experienced from your own culture and white middle class America.

  • zagsallday

    This is a very inspiring story. I’m part Colville Indian and part Spokane Indian, so I completely understand where you are coming from when you talk about being discriminated against or looked down on for not having full blood. Its amazing how upset our people are about being discriminated against, yet they discriminate against anyone who isn’t their own in the same way. It is incredibly inspirational to hear that you have gone on to do so many great things with your life, get a better education and that you are continuing to pursue doing what you love every day. So often people give up when its hard or when they face adversity because of who they are and where they come from, but you didn’t and that is amazing!

  • Alice

    Your story inspired me because of the fact that you are
    Native American and you had a career in the dental field but realized that didn’t
    satisfy you so you went out to achieve your happiness and goals in life. I too
    am Native Indian, Lipan Apache from Texas, and Mexican. I have never been accepted
    by either race because I am American and I only speak English. I am not happy
    with my current employment and to better myself I am going to school to achieve
    the same goals.

    I can relate to you in regards of working in the Bookkeeping
    field I find when I go on Interviews I find that all the workers are white
    ladies so when I walk in they are all staring at me. They ladies will question
    my experience and family life and when I answer them, they seem quite surprise
    that I am pretty intelligent.

  • Jacqueline Basulto

    I can relate to the hardships associated with achieving success coming from a native, hispanic background. As
    a Latina woman, I have seen poverty in my family and understood the struggle of
    moving to America in search of a better life. My ethnicity, comprised of Cuban,
    Puerto Rican, and Taino Indian blood has shaped me into a woman who understands
    the importance of education and striving for her ambitions. In addition, because
    my parents never took AP classes or the SAT and did not apply to selective
    colleges, I have grown to be very independent and self-motivated in achieving
    my goals. Though I have faced many hardships in my education, I feel blessed and proud that my effort has paid off.

  • Gabrielle S.

    Like many of the other commenters here, I too was inspired and reassured by this story. What resonated with me most was the writer’s line, “This means that someone who is less than a “full blood Indian” is less than authentic as an Indian person. It’s a constant process of minimalization.” As the daughter of a bi-racial couple (my father is Filipino, my mother is caucasian), I have also felt a sense of isolation that being a child of two cultures brings. I felt alienated by my Filipino family for not being “Filipino enough,” but my Filipino looks and features estranged me from caucasian culture.

    Like the writer, I struggled to find ways to authenticate my Filipino voice and find a way to connect to my ancestors. As my B.F.A capstone project for my undergraduate degree, I attempted to write a novella about my experience. For days I started and stopped, stopped and started, and wound up with eight pages of meandering text and plotlines. I felt stilted—worse, I felt as though I was an imposter, telling someone else’s story. It didn’t help that my fellow students (all of them white), frequently teased me by inferring I wasn’t “official” enough to write as a Filipino. Though it burned to do it, I gave up. I chose a different topic for my final project; when the semester finished and everyone else celebrated their achievement, I felt a deep sense of dissatisfaction.

    It wasn’t until I was able to visit the Philippines with my lola (grandmother), three years after
    that failed attempt, that I began to feel as though I fit in. Walking the village streets with her, and hearing her stories strengthened my own voice, and made me take ownership of my roots.

    I think bi-racial writers have big obstacles to overcome in terms of being taken seriously as a writer who writes on behalf of a people, whether that topic be history or personal experience. Reading a success story like this, especially given the level of personal fulfillment this writer reports, gives me hope that we are moving towards knocking those obstacles down, and empowering a new generation that grows more diverse every day.

  • Adrienne J.

    Your story really caught my attention and I am intrigued by it. I am African-American and I can relate to the hard times that you have faced. Life is not always made easy but you have certainly maintained a positive attitude during your downs. You made the best of everything and it seems that everything turned out good in the end for you.

  • http://www.facebook.com/WilfredoHernandezJr Wilfredo Hernandez Jr

    Wonderful story, very inspirational. I’m of Latino descent, Puerto Rican specifically, but I don’t know enough about my culture or history to really have any pride in that side of myself. The aspect of your story I found most moving was your story about escaping from your life as a dental assistant and starting your journey towards a career that’s both fulfilling and one that you enjoy. I hope you can find a better, full-time position soon to put your education to use, but it’s still an inspiration to know that dead end jobs don’t last forever and it’s never too late to turn things around.

  • http://www.facebook.com/crissel.rodriguez.3 Crissel Rodriguez

    I found this story very touching. I think it speaks to many people including myself who wake up every day trying to find the perfect career that will not only provide for our families but will also feed our souls, and our intellectual curiousity. Some of us get a college degree that will allow us the ability to change people’s lives for the better but unfortunately find that those jobs are limited. I was faced with some of the same obstacles as the writer illustrates here. It really does take a lot of strength to not feel discouraged and press on. I think another important lesson here is the importance of using our education to decrease or eliminate discrimination in our country. As a person who was raised with the values, customs and traditions of two countries, it is difficult sometimes to come to terms with both without feeling like your identity is being compromised. I think the writer was able to successfully use the channel of writing to foster a deeper understanding of herself and her culture for the benefit of all of us.

  • http://www.facebook.com/pborba1 Priscila Borba

    Reading this interview, I was inspired by the tenacity of the beautiful, intelligent mix-heritage woman struggling to convey her story and fulfill her dreams within a country she was in raised and promised such seemingly frivolous ideas as personal and professional fulfillment. Or even, dare I say it, happiness.

    As a first-generation Brazilian immigrant and first generation college student in this country, my first impulse reading this story was to situate her story and my own within the context of race and the suffered consequences of being ascribed to the fancy scholarly wastebasket of “otherness”. To add legitimacy to my bold accusations, I turn directly to Critical Race Theory scholarship and beg an open mind of my audience as I proceed to explain the debauchery of self-negation, the never-ending demands of authenticity and
    the restraints on creativity those relegated to the status of “otherness” must endure.

    This woman’s story echoed my own with the need to legitimize my Brazilianness despite my having lived in this country for more than half my life. It made me think back to how I intellectually worked through James Johnson’s The Autobiography of an Ex-Colored man—a book that shook the foundational basis upon which I grew my image of personal potential for success and attainment of happiness within the United States as a Brazilian woman with contested continents upon which to call home. Specifically, it made me question where my loyalties lie: whether it is to my personal fulfillment, my creative development, and myself or to contribute to the growing Latino movement my Brazilian ethnicity gets slapped onto as a second thought despite my experience with racism? Must the burden of a race and ethnicity fall upon my shoulders or can I bypass this issue entirely and leave this on-and-off repugnantly ignorant country? If only it were so simple.

    For those unfamiliar, James Johnson crafts a story that contests the American Dream and race relations in the United States using a bi-racial narrator who is the byproduct of illegitimate sexual relations between a black woman and a rich southern white man. The boy himself grows up in the north, and the novel explains his coming into his racialized consciousness: the understanding of how white America saw him despite
    impeccably white pigmentation and plethora of talents and endless creativity. He too, ultimately faces the question of whether to risk destitution and the very real physical dangers of lynching in order to uplift his race, or whether to lay this subject to rest and chase after his own dreams by rejecting this externally-imposed burden wherever he felt most personally fulfilled irrespective of his race.

    My question, then, is the following: why must an individual forsake her creative potential and advocate for her equality prior to the acceptance and proper remuneration for the art she produces? How was the Civil Rights Movement of the ‘60s seen, really, if any work I produce must be seen through the lens of a working-class, female Brazilian immigrant raised in the United States rather than an individual whose art speaks beyond racialized intellectual borders, not to mention the endless list of other imposed minority statuses that make me unfailingly “other”? In case anyone was wondering, I am more than samba, a big butt, racial miscegenation or a girl with a propensity to enjoy the little things in life.

    To the amazing woman who found her native-americanism minimalized and got a degree to combat its belittlement, who has found peace in pursuing equality through freelance writing and love in the arms of an individual who respects her intellectual and existential necessity to continue fighting for and against the label she has inevitably been given, my sincerest congratulations and a very serious thank you for sharing. Although you do not know me, your (however much abridged) story fills me with a certain je ne sais quoi that I dare not in turn belittle through word choice. I believe our stories speak to each other through experience in a predominantly white system, not necessarily through language, but through a creative itch guided by observant eyes and a sensitive, open mind. Your story fills me with physical fervor.

    Lastly, I would like to add that on “the position of the advanced element of the colored race” Johnson
    ultimately maintains that “the blacks who carry the entire weight of the race question” are the ones who, “out of a chaos of ignorance and poverty…have evolved a social life of which they need not be ashamed”. For that, I believe sharing your story as a partially native-american woman scrambling to understand her position in society through literature and education, while openly refusing to compromise her lifestyle in southern California where she feels she belongs, you send an incredibly powerful message to what it means to be
    bi-racial and own one’s identity. Again, thank you for your tenacity and for sharing your creativity with the world. I wish you happiness and higher pay per freelance assignment!

  • DeboraVAA

    Very inspirational, wonderful story. Being a Hispanic woman, I can relate to the alienation.

  • JenniferChrista

    I loved this post. I am biracial (black and white), born and raised in the midwest. Although my race and ethnicity are not so uncommon anymore, I, along with friends, find myself trying to fit into some disillusioned archetype of what it means to be black, while also having been raised in a predominantly white area of the city. I have been told that I ‘talk white’, ‘act white’, and I even listen to ‘white’ music. I initially struggled with this and attempted to define myself in opposition to my stereotype, embracing being the exception to the so-called rule. I later came to realize that every society has created social structures and, looking at such structures along with a critical historical view, I saw that my own struggles were not unique, rather they were in fact the rule. As the writer mentioned, we do not like to think of ourselves as racist or discriminatory, but because these things are so institutionalized, we are often blind to our own prejudice. As a graduate student in a TESL program, my future goals include traveling around the world and working in indigenous communities, teaching English as a way to empower the people to be knowledgeable as to what is happening around the world, within their community, and to be able to fight against oppression and prejudice. I would love to work freelance for communities whenever I can. This story is truly an inspiration.

  • Lin P.

    This post was very interesting and informative of the multi-cultural point of view. I am also a mixed, half-Chinese and the other half is English, Welsh and Native American. I connected with this story due to her experiences regarding race and the demands of being “pure-blood.” It’s surprising to be from a ethnically mixed area (Bay Area in California) and yet people are still concerned about if you’re “Asian enough.”

    This story applies to more then just writers, it applies to just about any multi-cultural individual in the United States. I love how she has changed her mind about her career so many times and she’s embraced her Native American culture through all her struggles. I’m never going to be completely Chinese or “white” or Native American, I’m just simply me. This post reminds me that I can only be myself and you can’t let anyone else judge me for that.

    I hope that other readers, bi-racial or not, will be able to understand how stereotypes of cultures can be ever hurtful and you shouldn’t assume anything. The United States has these stereotypes about every types of race and culture. I think it’s time to address these stereotypes and educating others on how to have these opinions but not to express them in a hurtful way. I hope this woman’s story continues to be shared and she accomplishes her goals in becoming an educator.

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